"Depression Got My Thoughts"

Although im lost in the valley of thoughts.
I still see a broad light at the end of the gloomy alley.
As I walk upon tough rugged rocky terrain
I am blinded by a spasmodic erratic fit of insanity.
Struck with a burden that I carry
On my shoulders like a boulder
It is weighing down on me the more i make a move.
For the more i make a move the more i fail.
It always seemed to rain pain
but now my pain has turned to hail.
Jesus do you hear my prayers?
because lately the devil has surrounded me with layers.
No weapons of my enemies shall prosper
Even as my soul becomes cold later.
I feel like I should die because I fail again and again.
Each time it hurts to cry because of my unloyal friends.
My failure was supposed to make me stronger
but it only made me weaker.
How much longer can i take this weather.
I try to be a leader as this river of tears flow forever.
Will it be better if I follow the worlds ways.
These are the thoughts that hit my mind everyday.
But your word says to follow your word.
So I try to follow it the best i can
when my soul is crippled like a maimed bird.
Father guide me and show me your force
As I pray in Jesus Name
because depression got my thoughts.

"Blinded"-Rap

Turn back da clock while da time flys look 2 da sky
Hard 2 grow with my soul when my happiness dies
Was a kid doing time aint no mercy 4 me
Doing bids on my rhyme wit no love in da streets.
Watch my tears flow down from dis river of tears
In da cold arms unfold when i shiver wit fear
Or just bitter 2 care and now my Quiver is torn
Straight arrow missed its mark now the hope is forlorn.
Straight born from dis storm being clouded wit peers
Too scared 2 get my ways
Had ta pay em bak wit tearz.
Am I cold 4 revenge
when my soul was my only friend?
Blinded by their ways
Now a slave 2 their own deep end.

How could I b blind tryna figure out these signs
Out on bail where it hails wit their words benign.
Did time when I was younga
Escaped the storm like thunda
Catch my sparks when it starts
Now my soul is under the rain trapped in da game
Soul slain brain torn now im in disdain.
Will It wane like da moon when it cums after u.
Like a tiger in da woods with my fangs bright and true.
So do I do wat was taught As a child of the Lord
people bugging hearts rushing when it cuts like a sword.
Blood gushing hearts pumpin torn umbilical cord
Wit my lyrical sword ima spiritual ward.
Placed wit guidance on my silence
With a critical board.
Blinded